Yesterday’s News

i dreamed of fire and smoke
standing in a disappearing room
eaten away by flames

the floors started giving away
when i saw you
slumped in a chair
dead as a doornail
apparently having
started it all

the sparks of destruction
still igniting
from your fingertips

i can feel my lungs
slowly fill with the dust
of what once was
as my throat
starts to burn
and it is then
i realise
there’s no point
in coughing
for i too
am already dead

Fire Starter

it was my father
who taught me
that love was not
unconditional

but that it had to be
earned
like everything else
in life

your father taught you
that you were
unlovable

that you needed
to man up
get a steady job
pay the bills
die quietly

no wave making
ripple effect
life

but you
my love

were always
meant to be
a fire starter

and this is why
you would always
leave
before you
even arrived

Pissing Blood

she pisses blood

i don’t feel so well
she said
her face is grey
her hair so greasy
as her eyes
turn inward
looking at what once was

where’s my husband

he died

she pisses blood

he died?

yes

i try to clean her up
but there’s a lot
and she can’t lay still
or won’t
i haven’t decided yet

you are butchering me
she says
sweat on my brow
trying to keep
her insides inside

i’m sorry
i say

and all she says is
she pisses blood

On the 11:08 to Rotterdam

i’m a plant today
with my head
pressed against
the window
eyes closed
soaking up
the october sun
while the girl in the seat
next to me
clings to her coffee
and stares at her
screen

i have this bad
habit
of looking at
the work of others

she’s writing
a thesis
about god knows what
and i think of myself
ten years ago
at art school
and wonder
if the boy
in front of us
ever showers

Poetry Collection: The Lady from Across the Sea

The Lady from across the Sea is in love with a world broken into a glorious prism of humanity. Rijsdijk renders the power of the mothers, the tragedy of the lovers, and the struggle of the forgotten in such clear tones and immersive scenes that she gives her readers permission to surrender to the waves. – Sean Felix

The Lady from across the Sea is the author’s second poetry collection. It is available in my shop.